To be appreciated

We all crave to be appreciated. It is a gnawing and persistently demanding hunger. If it is not satisfied then we will be disconsolate, despondent, melancholy and despairing individuals.

The best way to die?

People say that when it's their time to go they'd just like to go quickly rather than hearing they have some terminal illness. I completely identify with that. I would feel terrified if I learnt I had a terminal illness. Much better to go quickly -- not endure those months of fear leading to one's eventual demise. 

And yet . . and yet . . I think that after the initial shock and stultifying fear, the subsequent reminiscing about my life, what it all means, whether I might survive my death and if so what I might experience, writing down these thoughts on my blog, perhaps even relating any anomalous experiences I might have e.g. deathbed visions, then perhaps this might be a desirable option. At least if any pain could be minimised.

When I die

I feel that when I die I might enter into infinity and encompass love beyond compare, beyond comprehension. All memories will come flooding back. I will meet my soulmate who I had long forgotten. A mutual infinite love and empathy that will turn my soul inside out. I will feel I have finally come home, at last know who I truly am.

[wrote this after a few bottles of lager]

Why is classical music so highly regarded?

I wonder why classical music is so highly regarded? Most of it is just monotonous. Presumably it's the best music from bygone times, so we need to compare it to the best pop music. The emotions, feelings etc elicited by certain pop music are greater for me than any classical music eg "dark side of the moon" by Pink Floyd, "mother suite" from atom heart mother by Pink Floyd, "I'm not in love" by 10cc. "If I fell" by the Beatles, "Closing" by Philip Glass etc.

Streaming TV programmes

Until yesterday I had never used a TV streaming service.  I had occasionally watched a programme on youtube but had never used Netflix, Amazon Prime or whatever else might exist.

But on Sunday when buying stuff from Amazon it gave me the option to try Amazon Prime free for a month.  So I took the offer up.

Hitherto I had sort of assumed that the £8 a month membership would include loads of programmes where I do not pay any extra.  That's not the case.  Of all the movies and TV series I've seen in the past and searched for, perhaps around 1 in 15 are available for no extra charge.

The 1973 version of Jesus Christ Superstar was available; a film I've seen in the past many times.  The quality was amazing!  I'm not sure what I was expecting, perhaps a little bit of stopping and starting.  But it was just like watching it on TV . . nay, if anything the quality was better.  I think perhaps the resolution was higher than what I'm used to.  My TV only goes up to a resolution of something like 740 * 480.  It's a Panasonic 32 inch TV that I bought back in 2007 and cost me £950.  I had plenty of money back then so I got the most expensive TV available.   But I suppose it won't compare well to modern TV's.  I need to buy a new 50 inch TV so I can watch streamed TV on it.

Anyway, I did find the children's sci-fi series The Girl from Tomorrow which was free to watch.  I first watched this back in around 1992 when it was originally aired.  I loved it to bits!  And now I'm finally watching it again.  One complaint.  Why must they cut out most of the theme music at the beginning and end of each episode?  I love the music and it's extremely irritating that Amazon insist on cutting it out.

Anyway, almost 30 years ago I remember thinking the portrayal of the future in the year 3000 wasn't completely daft as most portrayals of the future are.  I was particularly captivated by the use of "transducers", a headband type of device used to vastly amplify one's psi abilities eg levitating objects, healing.  Anyway, I'm not doing a review here as I've just started to watch it again.