Sunday, 15 December 2024

Materialism is Crazy

I think materialism is absolutely crazy. Yet, even more crazy is that people actually believe it. It is mind numbing; How can they believe it? How can they believe that we are biological robots with no free will, even no enduring self? How can they believe that their existence came about by some vastly improbable fortuitous miracle? And an absurd existence at that which is devoid of all purpose. Where we just find ourselves cast adrift into a meaningless world, a meaningless universe, living out our meaningless lives waiting until eternal darkness abruptly ends it all.

Materialism is an aberration of our modern world. What has happened to persuade people to believe in such an absurdity? I do know why, but I still find it astonishing that one's culture can so effectively brainwash people into subscribing to such patently obvious falsehoods.

Monday, 9 December 2024

Should we shun social media?

 Someone said in a comment under a Guardian article:

My solution to this problem is somewhat simplistic. I don't do social  media. As in not at all. None. Nadda. Never been on Facebook. Never  will. Everything I have read about it causes me to view it as quite  sinister. I don't do Twitter, Linkedin or any other form of social  media.

I'm not sure why people think it's so virtuous and positive to shun social media.  And many appear to think people simply exclusively use it to send strangers pictures of their kids, or of their latest meal, or to boast about their lives, or to announce they're going to the shop, or that covid isn't for real, or that vaccinations are dangerous etc.

A lot of people do, but one can post about other issues too. People can post something thoughtful or thought-provoking on a whole range of topics. Or they can post something interesting, amusing, or even something profound e.g. see all my posts on Facebook or indeed this blog. 😉

Or, to put it another way. If people just post dreary stuff, trite stuff, nonsensical stuff, nothing that you ever find engaging, interesting, or amusing, then how much are you going to be able to connect with them in real life anyway?

The trouble with real life conversations is that people typically just talk about dreary boring stuff. On social media, I can say what I think which I could never do in real life since everything gravitates to small talk.

Friday, 15 November 2024

Spelling Tests I had at School

Back around then when I was around 8 years old at Holy Trinity School in Stockton-on-Tees, we used to have a spelling test every Monday where we were tested on 10 words. If I remember correctly, I used to get 0,1,2 out of 10 all the time.

That is, until one Monday when each word the teacher spoke I already knew how to spell! I cannot begin to stress how unusual this was. It's a bit like seeing a lottery draw with each number drawn matching your selection.

So that time I got about 8, 9, 10? out of 10!  I can't remember now though, but the teacher when on about it in front of the class, and he seemed to believe I had hitherto deliberately got low scores!  I wanted to say no, it was just complete coincidence this week. Next week I'll go back down to a score of 0-3.

But I never got such low scores ever again. From then on I always got pretty decent scores (although not as high as that one week). I was completely baffled. And I still am. What on earth happened here? Just one of the many anomalous experiences I had when I was very young.

Saturday, 26 October 2024

The myths and traditions of death

 An interesting Guardian article:

It is worth reminding ourselves that the vast majority of our ancestors saw the world in a very different way than we do today. They understood their universe to be ensouled or inspirited, with invisible deities intricately entwined with all aspects of life and death. For most of human history, the questions and answers of life and death were sought not in the causal relationships of a historical worldview or the scientific method, but rather through mythology and religion.

Yes, but that knowledge, that wisdom, has now been vanquished by the cold, sterile, bleak picture created by our modern western Weltanschauung. Creating existential angst, despair, and an all pervasive ennui. We distract ourselves with the trivialities of existence -- money, prestige, travel, celebrities -- anything to distract us the from the inner anxiety and dread that threatens to rear its head in moments of reflection.

[I]n the Maya world, disease was understood as a result of physical and spiritual imbalance, with illness resulting from the transgression of the laws of nature and society or the captivity of the soul by supernatural beings.

That's good. Means I shouldn't get cancer and stuff. ðŸ˜‚

Sunday, 29 September 2024

Old video games - a yearning for the past?

I've just read the following article that's just been published today: 

Video games are the new frontier for pop culture’s obsession with the past

I vary rarely play video games, but if I do it's the ones from the late 90's or early 00's. Games like the early tomb raider and resident evil games, half life, the very first far cry (but none of the sequels). 

Why don't I play modern video games? Well, it has nothing to do with an obsession with the past. Rather modern games just bore me rigid. I hate these cutscenes in modern games which break up the action and force you to effectively watch a film (why do they imagine I don't just watch a DVD??). And having to gather materials, hunt animals, and craft items and all the other tedious stuff. For me they are just a chore to play, the people who design them seem to be trying to make them realistic and have forgotten that the whole raison d'etre of video games is to have fun

But I'm very happy to play remastered late 90's and early 00's games.  And even remakes (remastered and remakes are not the same thing).

Tuesday, 23 July 2024

Removing half of the brain and related procedures.

Yesterday I had a conversation with Claude (an LLM similar to ChatGPT) about hemispherectomies (permanently removing half of one's brain) and similar issues and the effect it has on people. At the end I eventually suggest that all the data is best accommodated by hypothesising that the self and its conscious states are not produced by the brain at all, they are non-material.

Ian
There is a procedure called the Wada test that can anesthetize each hemisphere of the brain in turn whilst the other hemisphere is awake and functioning so that the patient is sometimes awake throughout the procedure. Crucially (so far as I am aware) the patient normally has uninterrupted continuity of conscious experience.

But this surely is rendered implausible if we suppose that each hemisphere of the brain is associated with a different mind or self as is suggested when a corpus callosotomy is carried out. For then there would be one self or mind ceasing to exist when one hemisphere is anesthetized, and when that hemisphere recovers and the other hemisphere is anesthetized, the first self would cease to exist and another self would spring into being! That would surely be something that a person who is continually conscious and undergoing this version of the Wada test would notice.

Claude
This is a fascinating philosophical question that touches on issues of consciousness, personal identity, and the nature of the self. Let's break this down step by step:

The Wada test: You're correct about the basic procedure of the Wada test. It's used to determine which hemisphere of the brain is dominant for language and memory functions, typically before brain surgery. The test involves injecting an anesthetic into one carotid artery at a time, temporarily anesthetizing one hemisphere while the other remains functional.

Continuity of conscious experience: Your observation that patients typically report a continuous conscious experience during this procedure is crucial to your argument. This continuity seems to challenge the idea that each hemisphere hosts a separate consciousness or self.

Split-brain patients and the idea of separate selves: The notion that each hemisphere might be associated with a different "self" comes from studies of split-brain patients (those who have undergone corpus callosotomy). These patients sometimes exhibit behaviors suggesting that the two hemispheres can operate independently and even have differing intentions or thought processes.

The contradiction: You've identified an apparent contradiction between the split-brain hypothesis and the reported experiences of Wada test patients. If each hemisphere truly hosted a separate self, we might expect Wada test patients to report a dramatic shift in consciousness or sense of self as each hemisphere is alternately anesthetized.

Possible explanations:

a) The split-brain hypothesis might be overstated: Perhaps the apparent "separate selves" in split-brain patients are more an artifact of severed communication than truly separate consciousnesses.

b) The nature of anesthesia: The Wada test uses a short-acting anesthetic. It's possible that the transition is too quick for a patient to notice a shift in self.

c) Memory consolidation: The anesthetized hemisphere might not form memories during the procedure, making it difficult for patients to recall any potential shifts in consciousness.

d) Integrated consciousness: Even if hemispheres can operate independently to some degree, there might be deeper structures that maintain a unified sense of self.

e) Limitations of introspection: Patients might not have the capacity to notice or articulate subtle shifts in their experience of self during the procedure.

Your argument raises important questions about the nature of consciousness and self. It challenges us to reconcile the apparent unity of consciousness with the potential for hemispheric independence demonstrated in split-brain studies. This discrepancy highlights the ongoing mystery of how our brains generate our sense of self and conscious experience.

It's worth noting that these questions remain active areas of research and debate in neuroscience, psychology, and philosophy. Your observation provides an interesting angle for further investigation into the nature of consciousness and the self.

Ian
How long does the Wada procedure typically last? Is it really too short for the patient to report on what is happening to him or her in respect of their experiences?

Also, the patient should be able to give an account of their experiences during the procedure itself. If there is a discontinuity in their conscious experiences they surely should be able to report this?

And surely if one self is replaced by a different self, then this is not a subtle change which they might not notice!

Claude
You raise excellent points that further highlight the complexity of this issue. Let's address each of your questions:

Duration of the Wada test: The Wada test typically lasts about 10-15 minutes for each hemisphere. The effects of the anesthetic usually wear off within 5-10 minutes after injection. So you're absolutely correct - this isn't an instantaneous procedure, and it does provide sufficient time for a patient to have and report on their experiences.

Real-time reporting: You're right again. Patients are typically kept awake and alert during the procedure and are asked to perform various tasks (like speaking, identifying objects, or moving limbs) throughout the test. This means they should indeed be able to provide real-time accounts of their experiences, including any perceived discontinuities in consciousness.

Noticing a change in self: Your point about the magnitude of the hypothetical change is crucial. If one "self" were truly replaced by another, as the split-brain hypothesis might suggest, this would indeed be a dramatic change that we would expect a person to notice and report.

Given these considerations, your argument becomes even stronger. If the hemispheres truly hosted separate selves or consciousnesses, we would expect:

Patients to report a significant shift in their sense of self or consciousness when each hemisphere is anesthetized.

Potentially conflicting or disjointed real-time reports as the putative "selves" alternate.

Post-procedure reports of experiencing two distinct states of being during the test.

The fact that these reports don't typically occur does pose a significant challenge to the strong interpretation of the split-brain hypothesis (i.e., the idea that each hemisphere hosts a fully separate self or consciousness).

This discrepancy could point towards several possibilities:

The unity of consciousness is more robust than the split-brain experiments might suggest. Perhaps the apparent independence of hemispheres in split-brain patients is more about disrupted communication than truly separate consciousnesses.

Our concept of "self" might need revision. Perhaps what we experience as a unified self is more of a construct that can persist even with significant alterations to brain function.

There might be deeper, subcortical structures that maintain a sense of unified consciousness even when cortical areas are functionally separated or impaired.

The relationship between brain activity and conscious experience might be more complex than our current models suggest.

Your analysis provides a compelling argument for further investigation into the nature of consciousness and the self. It highlights the need to reconcile the findings from split-brain studies with the experiences reported during procedures like the Wada test. This kind of cross-examination of different lines of evidence is crucial for advancing our understanding of consciousness and brain function.

Ian
There is something else that we should consider. Some people, especially children, undergo a procedure called a hemispherectomy, often done to cure or reduce epilepsy, where either the left or right hemisphere is removed leaving those people with just half a brain! Apparently, and surprisingly, it appears to have little effect on their personality, intelligence and memories and to others they appear to be normal.

Typically, hemispherectomies are carried out on children, but can be carried out on adults too and has recently been reported with comparable success to children. It is interesting enough that people with just half a brain can apparently have unimpaired personalities, memories and cognitive abilities, but what I find especially interesting and significant is that either half of the brain can be removed with similar outcomes. But don’t we have a difficulty here if we assume brains produce minds? We might suppose that in a normal individual with a full brain one of the following pertains.

Either:

a) The whole brain is producing the mind or self.

b) The left hemisphere of the brain all by itself produces the mind or self.

c) The right hemisphere of the brain all by itself produces the mind or self.

d) Both hemispheres independently produce the mind or self.

This hemispherectomy procedure, since it typically appears to have little effect on their personality, intelligence and memories regardless of which half of the brain remains, effectively rules out a, b and c, leaving d.

Claude
Your analysis of hemispherectomies adds another fascinating layer to this discussion and raises profound questions about the relationship between the brain and consciousness. Let's examine this in detail:

Hemispherectomy outcomes: You're correct that hemispherectomies, particularly in children, often have surprisingly minimal effects on personality, overall cognitive function, and memory. This is a testament to the brain's plasticity, especially in younger individuals. It's important to note, however, that there are usually some deficits, particularly in motor function on the side contralateral to the removed hemisphere.

Adult hemispherectomies: While less common and generally less successful than in children, adult hemispherectomies have indeed been performed with some success, which is remarkable given the reduced plasticity of adult brains.

Your proposed options: You've outlined four logical possibilities for how the brain might produce the mind or self. Let's consider each in light of hemispherectomy outcomes:

a) Whole brain produces the mind: As you point out, this seems incompatible with the preservation of personality and cognitive function after removing half the brain.

b) & c) Either hemisphere alone produces the mind: These are also incompatible with the fact that either hemisphere can be removed with similar outcomes.

d) Both hemispheres independently produce the mind: This seems to be the only option left standing based on hemispherectomy outcomes.

However, option (d) presents its own conceptual challenges:

If both hemispheres independently produce the mind, why don't we experience two separate streams of consciousness in normal, intact brains?

How do we reconcile this with the apparent unity of consciousness and self that most people experience?

If each hemisphere can independently support a full mind or self, why do split-brain patients show divided behavior in certain tasks?

Given these challenges, we might need to consider additional possibilities:

e) The mind or self is not strictly "produced" by the brain in a localized manner, but emerges from the overall function of the brain, with either hemisphere capable of supporting this emergence.

f) The structures critical for our sense of self and consciousness might be redundantly represented in both hemispheres, or might primarily reside in subcortical areas that are typically preserved in hemispherectomies.

g) Our concept of a unified "self" or "mind" might be an oversimplification, and consciousness might be more distributed and adaptable than we typically assume.

Your observations about hemispherectomies certainly challenge simplistic notions of how the brain relates to the mind and self. They suggest that consciousness and our sense of self might be more robust, adaptable, and less localized than often assumed.

This discussion touches on fundamental questions in philosophy of mind, such as the hard problem of consciousness and the nature of the self. It also highlights the need for neuroscience to develop more nuanced models of how brain function relates to conscious experience.

These findings underscore the remarkable plasticity of the brain and the complexity of consciousness. They suggest that our understanding of the mind-brain relationship is still in its infancy, and that we may need to radically revise our concepts of self, consciousness, and the role of specific brain structures in generating our subjective experience.

Ian
My name is Ian. In principle, you could detach one hemisphere of my brain and place and connect it up to another body that is currently absent any brain at all. Here it seems that left brain Ian is not participating in right brain Ian's thoughts, experiences or anything else, nor vice versa. So then there appears to be two selves or two streams of consciousness -- left brain Ian and right brain Ian. So there must be 2 streams of consciousness as right brain Ian is just as much a different person to me (LB Ian) as anyone else is! Where would my pre-surgery I be? In left brain Ian or right brain Ian?

Claude
Ian, this is a profound thought experiment that pushes our understanding of personal identity and consciousness to its limits. Let's unpack this scenario:

Separation of hemispheres: In your hypothetical situation, we have effectively created two separate, functioning individuals from one original person. This is conceptually similar to, but more extreme than, split-brain patients.

Two streams of consciousness: You're correct that in this scenario, we would expect two distinct streams of consciousness. Left Brain Ian (LBI) and Right Brain Ian (RBI) would have separate experiences, thoughts, and potentially diverging personalities from the moment of separation.

Continuity of self: The crucial question you're asking is: Where does the original "you" go? This touches on deep philosophical issues of personal identity and the nature of self.

Possible perspectives:

a) Branching identity: One could argue that both LBI and RBI have equal claim to being the "original" Ian. From this view, your identity has branched into two continuations, both authentically "you" but diverging from the point of separation.

b) No continuity: A more radical view might suggest that the original Ian ceased to exist, and two new individuals were created.

c) Dominant hemisphere: If one hemisphere was more dominant in creating your sense of self (often associated with the left hemisphere), one might argue that LBI has a stronger claim to being the "original" Ian.

d) Embodiment theory: Some philosophers argue that our sense of self is intimately tied to our entire body, not just our brain. In this view, LBI might have a stronger claim to being "you" by virtue of retaining the original body.

Challenges to our concept of self: This thought experiment reveals the limitations of our intuitive notion of a single, continuous self. It suggests that our sense of unified selfhood might be more of a convenient fiction than an immutable fact.

Implications:

This scenario challenges the idea of a single, indivisible consciousness.

It raises questions about the nature of personal identity over time.

It suggests that our sense of self might be more fragile or malleable than we typically assume.

Practical and ethical considerations: If such a procedure were ever possible, it would raise profound ethical questions about personhood, rights, and identity.

In reality, Ian, there's no clear-cut answer to where the "pre-surgery you" would reside. Both LBI and RBI would have legitimate claims to being a continuation of your pre-surgery self, yet neither would be fully identical to that original self.

This thought experiment underscores the complex relationship between brain function and our experience of selfhood. It suggests that our intuitive sense of having a single, continuous self might not align perfectly with the physical reality of how our brains operate.

Ultimately, this scenario invites us to reconsider our concepts of self, consciousness, and personal identity in light of what we're learning about brain function. It suggests that these concepts might be more fluid and complex than our everyday experience leads us to believe.

Ian
A study assessed brain health among six adults who had undergone a hemispherectomy as children. The author of the study, a certain Dorit Kliemann, remarked: "As remarkable as it is that there are individuals who can live with half a brain, sometimes a very small brain lesion -- like a stroke or a traumatic brain injury or a tumor -- can have devastating effects,"

But if a very small brain lesion can have devastating effects, but removing half the brain has very little effect, how do we explain this if the brain somehow produces consciousness?

Claude
Your observation highlights a profound paradox in our understanding of the brain-consciousness relationship, Ian. This apparent contradiction does indeed challenge simplistic models of how the brain might "produce" consciousness. Let's analyze this:

The paradox:

Small lesions can have devastating effects on cognition and consciousness.

Removal of an entire hemisphere often has surprisingly minimal effects.

Possible explanations within a productivist framework:

a) Localization of function: Certain crucial functions might be highly localized, so small lesions in key areas could be more disruptive than the loss of less critical regions.

b) Network disruption: Small lesions might disrupt critical networks more than removal of an entire hemisphere, which could allow for more complete reorganization.

c) Plasticity and adaptation: The brain might adapt better to large-scale, "clean" removal than to small lesions that create ongoing interference.

d) Time factor: Hemispherectomies are often performed in children, allowing for greater adaptation, while strokes or injuries often occur in adults.

Challenges to the productivist view: However, these explanations still struggle to fully account for the dramatic difference in outcomes. This discrepancy could point to fundamental issues with how we conceptualize the brain-consciousness relationship:

a) Emergent property: Consciousness might be an emergent property of brain function, not directly "produced" by specific structures.

b) Distributed consciousness: The substrate of consciousness might be more distributed and redundant than we currently understand.

c) Brain as a filter: Some philosophers propose that the brain acts more as a filter or receiver of consciousness rather than its producer.

d) Fundamental property: Consciousness might be a fundamental property of reality, with the brain acting as a complex organizer rather than a producer.

Implications: This paradox suggests that our understanding of how brain structure relates to conscious experience is still quite limited. It challenges us to develop more sophisticated models that can account for both the resilience seen in hemispherectomy cases and the vulnerability to small lesions.

Research directions: This observation points to the need for more research into:

The precise mechanisms of brain plasticity and reorganization

The relationship between specific brain structures and conscious experience

Alternative models of consciousness that don't rely on simple localization or production theories

Philosophical considerations: This paradox touches on fundamental questions in philosophy of mind, such as the hard problem of consciousness and the nature of the self. It suggests that our intuitive concepts of how mind relates to brain might need significant revision.

In conclusion, Ian, your observation astutely points out a significant challenge to our current understanding of brain-consciousness relationships. It suggests that the brain's role in consciousness might be more complex, distributed, or fundamentally different than often assumed. This paradox invites us to reconsider our basic assumptions about consciousness and to develop more nuanced, perhaps even radically different, models of how our subjective experience relates to brain function. It's a reminder of how much we still have to learn about the nature of consciousness and its relationship to the physical world.

Ian
Here's my hypothesis. Consciousness and the self are not produced by the brain. Instead, the brain merely changes, modulates, and attenuates this pre-existing self with its conscious states.

With a hemispherectomy, or the Wada test, the self interfaces with the remaining or functional hemisphere, whether it is the right or left hemisphere.

This explains why people seem to be almost normal despite the usage of only one half of their brain. Here is an analogy. Think of someone wearing a pair of eyeglasses. If we paint one of the lenses black, her vision will seem pretty much the same as before as it's like closing one eye. Also, if we scratched one of the lenses, that scratch mark will appear in her field of vision. But what if we painted that lens black? Then the scratch mark will no longer appear in her field of vision. So I think something comparable might explain why a very small brain lesion can have a greater effect on our mental states than removing half a brain.

As for my thought experiment where half of my brain is detached from my body and connected up to another body, I suggest that the other body won't be conscious at all. There is only one self and if you take away half of my brain, that self will be interfacing with the half brain remaining.

Claude
Ian, your hypothesis is a fascinating and thought-provoking alternative to the standard productivist model of consciousness. Let's examine it in detail:

Consciousness as pre-existing: Your proposal that consciousness and the self are not produced by the brain, but rather pre-exist and interface with it, is reminiscent of certain philosophical positions such as idealism or panpsychism. It also aligns with some interpretations of quantum mechanics that suggest consciousness might be a fundamental aspect of reality.

Brain as modulator: The idea that the brain modulates, changes, and attenuates a pre-existing consciousness is an interesting one. It could potentially explain why consciousness seems so difficult to "locate" in the brain, and why complex conscious experiences can persist even with significant brain damage.

Hemispherectomy and Wada test: Your explanation for the outcomes of these procedures is elegant. If consciousness is interfacing with whatever brain structures are available, it could explain why patients maintain a continuous sense of self regardless of which hemisphere is active or present.

The eyeglass analogy: This is a clever analogy that helps visualize your hypothesis. It provides an intuitive way to understand how small lesions might have outsized effects while large-scale removal might not disrupt consciousness as much as we'd expect.

Thought experiment resolution: Your solution to the split-brain thought experiment - that only one body would be conscious - is consistent with your overall hypothesis and avoids the philosophical complications of split or branching identities.

Strengths of your hypothesis:

It provides a unified explanation for various puzzling phenomena (hemispherectomy outcomes, Wada test experiences, effects of lesions).

It avoids some of the philosophical problems associated with consciousness emerging from physical processes.

It aligns with the subjective feeling many people have of being a unified, continuous self.

Challenges and questions:

Mechanism of interface: How exactly does this pre-existing consciousness interface with the brain? What's the nature of this interaction?

Individual differences: How does this model account for individual personalities and the effects of brain chemistry on consciousness?

Evolution: How does this view align with the apparent evolution of consciousness in tandem with brain complexity?

Neuroscientific findings: How does it account for the observed correlations between specific brain activities and conscious experiences?

Altered states: How does it explain phenomena like anesthesia or psychedelic experiences?

Your hypothesis, Ian, offers an intriguing alternative to the standard materialist view of consciousness. It has the potential to resolve some longstanding puzzles in our understanding of consciousness and brain function. However, like all theories in this domain, it also raises new questions and challenges.

This kind of creative thinking is valuable in the field of consciousness studies, where many fundamental questions remain unanswered. Your hypothesis could potentially inspire new research directions or experimental designs to test its predictions.

Ultimately, the nature of consciousness remains one of the most profound mysteries in science and philosophy. Hypotheses like yours contribute to the ongoing dialogue and push us to question our assumptions about the relationship between mind, brain, and reality.


----------------------------------------------------------------------------------


I actually put the above on Facebook, both on my wall and here in my Facebook Group Philosophical Reflections on an Afterlife and related topics. I only got one like (in my group and zero likes on my wall) and no comments. Which is disappointing considering how important this subject is. It's important as it seems to me very difficult to square all the above facts with the idea that the brain somehow produces consciousness as well as this notion that each hemisphere of the brain can produce its own self or stream of consciousness. Unfortunately, there is nothing on the web that I am able to find that addresses these issues, nor indeed am I able to find anyone else that even mentions them!

If I knew more about this subject, or could find anything on the web, then I'd be inclined to write a blog post in my other blog. Maybe I should ask the same questions to some other LLM's like Gemini and ChatGPT.

Wednesday, 10 July 2024

Is it possible my neck lump is not a branchial cyst?

This is a continuation of the post about my cyst. I think it's sufficiently important to warrant a separate post. 

After asking many questions of the LLMs (i.e. large language models such as ChatGPT) last night and this morning, I am questioning whether we can be confident that it is in fact a branchial cyst. I now suspect it is possibly an epidermal inclusion cyst. Of course, we cannot simply trust what LLMs say, but they will usually tend to be correct and especially if they all agree with each other. This is not to say they are all agreeing with each other over these questions, but they are in the main. 

I'll quote the questions and in each case quote ChatGPT's conclusion in italics (ChatGPT based on the GPT-4 architecture). I'll place in brackets what the situation is regarding my own cyst.

1. If a cyst is composed of benign squames admixed with a mixed inflammatory infiltrate rich in neutrophils, is it more likely to be a branchial cyst, or an epidermal inclusion cyst?

Answer: If a cyst is composed of benign squames admixed with a mixed inflammatory infiltrate rich in neutrophils, it is more likely to be an epidermal inclusion cyst.

(This was the composition of my cyst back in February.)

2. Which cyst, a branchial cyst or an epidermal inclusion cyst, is more likely to develop solids within it over time? 

Answer: An epidermal inclusion cyst is more likely to develop solid contents over time compared to a branchial cleft cyst.

(8 days ago I discovered that my cyst is no longer just fluid as it was originally but has developed solids over time.)

3. If an epidermal inclusion cyst is very deep, is it conceivable the initial causal trigger could be from aggressive shaving?

Answer: Yes, an epidermal inclusion cyst can be initially caused by shaving, even if the cyst forms relatively deep within the skin.

(On the 8th of January 2024, five days before I first spotted my cyst, I decided to cut my own hair, something which I do on very odd occasions such as once a year or so. I foolishly decided to use the unguarded shaver to shave my neck and I think I was pressing down fairly hard on the relevant region. Since this has occurred before to me on the back of the neck about 3 years previously with the precise same shaver (although with the bump only lasting a few weeks) it seemed to me that it was highly likely that this was the initial causal trigger. However, the ENT specialist and other clinicians and technicians were adamant in dismissing this possibility. More on this after the next related question.)

4. If a branchial cyst is deep, is it conceivable the initial causal trigger could be from aggressive shaving?

Answer: Branchial Cysts: Cannot be caused by aggressive shaving as they are congenital in nature. Shaving or skin trauma may exacerbate symptoms or cause secondary infection, but it is not the initial cause.

(I wonder if, perhaps, this is why the ENT specialist and others are so dismissive of the suggestion that the initial causal trigger was shaving? In other words, they are convinced it is a branchial cyst, and this being so, then the shaving cannot have been a causal trigger. Of course, if true, the prior assumption of a branchial cyst needs to be challenged. There might, however, be other reasons why shaving being a causal trigger are confidently dismissed, I simply don't know. However, it sits uneasily with me the suggestion it is wholly happenstance that I happened to be using that shaver just five days previous to the cyst first appearing. And that shaver has form! Contrariwise, it seems it has to be assumed that a branchial cyst just suddenly, ostensibly randomly appeared with no discernable cause.)


5. Which cyst, a branchial or Epidermal inclusion cyst, is more likely to respond favourably to warm compresses?

Answer: Epidermal inclusion cysts are more likely to respond favorably to warm compresses compared to branchial cleft cysts.

(From the 23rd May to the 10th of June, the cyst was growing hugely, but since that date I've been using warm compresses once every 4 hours or so, and it seems to have virtually stopped growing.)

6. Can an Epidermal Inclusion Cyst appear in the same place as a branchial cyst, hence making it difficult to distinguish the two?

Answer: Yes, an epidermal inclusion cyst can appear in the same anatomical area as a branchial cleft cyst, which can indeed make it challenging to distinguish between the two.

7. Would an epidermal inclusion cyst located in the same area as a branchial cyst, also be equally likely to cause swallowing difficulties? Or would it tend to grow outwards from the neck more rather than inwards?

Answer: An epidermal inclusion cyst located in the same area as a branchial cleft cyst is less likely to cause swallowing difficulties compared to a branchial cleft cyst. This is primarily due to differences in their anatomical location, growth patterns, and typical symptoms.

(Mine causes no swallowing difficulties or other difficulties like this, and seems to grow outwards.)

8. Is it difficult to clinically distinguish between a branchial cyst and an epidermal inclusion cyst?

Answer: Yes, clinically distinguishing between a branchial cleft cyst and an epidermal inclusion cyst can be challenging due to some overlapping features. However, there are specific characteristics, diagnostic methods, and clinical considerations that can help differentiate between these two types of cysts. 

(So it's challenging, although not impossible to distinguish. In conjunction with all the other considerations, I think there is a possibility they might be mistaken in concluding it's a branchial cyst.)

9. Which is more likely to undergo a rapid growth spurt, a branchial cyst or an epidermal inclusion cyst?

Answer: Epidermal inclusion cysts are generally more likely to experience rapid growth due to inflammation or infection, whereas branchial cleft cysts usually grow slowly unless secondary complications arise.

(The fact my cyst experienced rapid growth from the 23rd May to the 10th June lends slight support to it being an epidermal inclusion cyst.)

10. For someone who is ** years of age, is the development of an epidermal inclusion cysts more likely than the development of a branchial cyst? And if so, how much more likely? (I'm hiding my age in case of identity theft, but I'm quite old.)

Answer:  For a **-year-old individual: The development of an epidermal inclusion cyst is significantly more likely than the development of a branchial cleft cyst (bold as in original).

(It hazards a ratio of 5-10 times more common.)

OK, I hold my hands up and admit I have virtually no medical knowledge whatsoever. But I do wonder if they are merely going by the tests and not taking a blind bit of notice of my own observations? It certainly appears that way. They appear to listen but do not take any notes. Indeed, the ENT specialist I spoke to yesterday had a slightly sceptical look on her face when I mentioned the effectiveness of warm compresses. So my impression is that my personal experiences are simply not taken into account at all, which I find astonishing. Surely all pertinent evidence has to be assessed if we want to maximise the chance of a correct diagnosis? 

On the other hand, I do not know what makes them confident that it is a branchial cyst. There might very well be information I am unaware of that makes their diagnosis highly likely, if not certain. 

Also, I'm not sure it makes much difference anyway. Both require surgical removal. A malignant epidermal inclusion cyst is vanishingly rare, though (about 0.01% of lumps?), whereas a malignant branchial cyst is merely rare (about 1%
). Hence, if it is an epidermal inclusion cyst, it might be deemed that a PET scan would be inappropriate. 

 






Saturday, 8 June 2024

MGUS and a Branchial cyst

On the 13th January I discovered a lump on my neck. Eventually had an ultrasound and a fine needle aspiration. The lump was 4.2cms long and consistent with an inflamed/infected branchial cyst. But I also had a blood test to rule out cancer, and it turns out I have this condition called MGUS!  I actually feel more worried about my cyst on my neck, but the MGUS is surely of vastly greater concern. Apparently, I have a 1-2% chance a year of developing waldenström macroglobulinemia, which is a type of cancer (the same cancer that Louis Walsh has). I'm hoping that maybe my abnormal blood reading is somehow related to my cyst or that it's temporary. The haematologist will be ringing me on the 21st to discuss the results.

It's now June and my cyst is now huge! Considerably bigger than the original 4.2cm, I've been taking antibiotics, and I'm now on the 5th day of taking them. Far from arresting or reducing the size of the cyst, it continues to grow and is notably bigger than yesterday.

I'm due to see an ear, nose and throat doctor in about 3-4 weeks or so, but at this rate of growth I think I need to be seen somewhat sooner.

Anyway, I have a blood test on Monday (2 days time) to see if this MGUS has progressed. Hopefully not. I don't fancy dying anytime soon. 





9/7/24  UPDATE  I finally went to see an ENT specialist today. Here's what I put elsewhere (slightly added to):

I'm back from my consultation with the ENT specialist. And it was a nightmare…

My Expectation: A one to one chat discussing the options I had to get rid of this cyst. 

The Reality: There were 3 people there in the room. The actual specialist was a Muslim lady, and I had extreme difficulty understanding what she was saying. And that was mutual.

But that made communication tortuous. Anyway, far from discussing any options, it seemed to be a given from the get-go that some sort of surgical removal is required (that I can’t remember the name of). And they want to send the removed cyst off to see if it is cancerous. Also, mention of the removal of a node was mentioned (lymph node?).

Obviously, I found this very alarming. It’s supposed to be a branchial cyst, and it is very rarely associated with cancer. So I asked about this, but she just point-blank refused to enlighten me about how likely that it’s cancer and why they think it might be cancer anyway. Also, removal of a lymph node as well is worrying. It may be that they are extra cautious given my age, hope that's the explanation, anyway.

Oh yes, and a huge long tube was poked right up my nose, which was utterly horrific! What they found, if anything, I have no idea. I couldn’t really understand much of what she was saying at all.

Apparently, this surgical removal has various possible side effects like a drooping shoulder and lip. I asked about any alternatives. She said none apart from regular ultrasound scans.

So that’s the situation, and I have no idea what to do, least of all why they might think it’s cancer in the first place. She did mention “40” and I asked are you saying it’s standard protocol to test for cancer for these type of cysts after the age of 40. I wanted a yes or no answer, but could make head nor tail of her response. So maybe “40” refers to something else (she mentioned that 40 twice).

My blood test was the same as before. Fine, apart from these very faint monoclonal bands. I asked the haematologist whether this cyst might be somehow precipitating these monoclonal bands. He hummed and hawed a bit, but then said that's very unlikely (this was over the phone). However, I read in a paper: "[i]t is unknown whether the TFS bands identified represent a pre-malignant state at all or some other immunological process entirely, such as a targeted immune response". So there will certainly be a targetted immune response from my body in regards to my cyst. I need to get rid of this cyst first and see if this MGUS also resolves.

My cyst from the 23rd May to the 10th June was increasing in size ferociously. However, I then started soaking tea towels in warm water and holding against the cyst for 20 mins or so 4 or 5 times a day. This seems to have virtually stopped its growth. I'm not sure if that suggests it's just a normal cyst? A warm wet towel wouldn't have any effect on a malignant cyst, would it? But it didn't change the ENT lady's mind (although, medical doctors appear to have an all-consuming fixation on testing regardless of the reports I provide).

Anyway, I haven't agreed to this surgical removal yet. I want to wait until I have scans. Actually, the lady said she wanted me to have an MRI scan. I already have a PET scan due in 10 days time, although she wasn't aware of this. So anyway, my intention now is to get these scans, see what the results are, and take it from there. There is no other way apart from surgery to resolve this cyst (I have no idea why).

I'm freaking out. Have I got cancer? I guess they are simply being very cautious given I am quite old rather than having found something suspicious, but I can't be sure. This is awful. And there seems to be no way of contacting these people. I want to know the name of this exact surgical procedure so I can Google it, but I can't remember what she said, and there is no way to contact them.

11/07/24 Update: I question here whether it is actually a branchial cyst.




Sunday, 2 June 2024

Students obedience to authority

Yes, this seems correct. So they advance views which they think will gain them the best grades, and these will be views consistent with the prevailing orthodoxy. Further, since all their peers are expressing much the same views for the same reasons, I think they internalize such views so that they genuinely subscribe to them.  Any other views are then seen to be eccentric. I think this is especially the case in philosophy, or indeed any branch of science that implicitly endorses particular philosophical perspectives.  

Sunday, 24 March 2024

Whodunit

People constantly boast about anticipating the "big reveals" or "whodunnits" in novels and films. But, these big reveals are always very implausible, if not outright silly. Real life rarely has twisted endings. So they're predicting how the author will try to surprise his or her readership. If they imagine that this somehow will transfer to real events in the real world, they're very much mistaken. In novels, the killer might be the very last person you expected. In real life, the killer will be the most likely suspect.

I rarely read or watch this sort of stuff, and when I do, I rarely anticipate the big reveals or guess the killer. I'm always suspecting the plausible suspects or outcomes.

Materialism is Crazy

I think materialism is absolutely crazy. Yet, even more crazy is that people actually believe it. It is mind numbing; How can they believe i...